Friend

Friend


I have a friend.
When am poor he comforts me.
When am rich he rejoices with me.
When i am down he lifts me up.

He comforts me in times of pain.
He believes in me when none does.
He's loves me and there's nothing i can do about it.

Never he failed to rescue me.
Never he fail to tide me through the trials.
Never he forgets me for others.

He is a friend of the poor;
of those poor in the spirits;
poor in relationship;
poor with love;
not only a friend but a saviour

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This friend promised me companionship for eternal, he promised me rest and peace
which i could seek refuge in times of trials.
Not only he's concern about success, he's even more concern when we fall.
A friend of the poor is his specialty,
whatever poverty he will tide you through.

This friend of mine is dead!
Dead in our transgressions so that he can be risen to be with us forever.
This friend of mine is interested to befriend people from all walks of life.

Are you interested to befriend this great friend of mine?

Home or Hotel?

Home or Hotel? I do always think about this at time.
I realise that now home now can sometimes be of just functionality to me. As sad as it may sound, What purpose does my home serves me?

1. Bathe
2. Sleep
3. Tv
4. A plain roof over my head

That's literally what's the purpose of my home is serving now. A plain old roof over the head.
Matthew 8:20
Jesus replied, "Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head."

Is that really the case? To my understanding that's the only verse that comes to my mind. Home has became a house, the refuge has became totally just functional, there's is nothing that i look foward or this domestic roof over my head is serving me no purpose. I return to a empty apartment day after day. Tormenting routine. I believe that am not the only one. Many others are also under such circusmstances. Returning to a souless habitant, feeling the lonliness. Working parents, schooling siblings, everyone doing there own thing. I am fortunate i have Jesus as my friend but to others who have yet to recognised this, i feel sad for them. When will people pause and look at this present state of pathetic relationship void, only bothered about their academics, career and many stuff that doesn' really matters. House, home or hotel an evaluation of our sad lonely lifestyle

I shall not be in want....

Another routine day in school. I was in for a real treat today!!! Realized that i only had $2 in my wallet. Duh.... Next it wasn't that bad. Off! To the ATM i go!!!! Ta da click click... I only have $0.80 ha Eighty cents~~~~ Pro ha didn't know the ATM display such numbers. As depressing it may be God reminded me...

Psalm 23

A psalm of David.

¹ The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

² He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

³ he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

⁴ Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death, ^a]">[a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

⁵ You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

⁶ Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

My Dad also got forcefully resigned from work.... I am sorry for mistaking you. All glory and honour to my heavenly father. Lord. i Choose to believe.

Suitable age???

Just had a session at my cell leader's house. It was on all the Boy/Girl relationship stuffs
Hmmm i tried to read up more on stuffs regarding Bgr. I even bought a book which is i kissed dating goodbye.

I felt that i could get a clear headstart of identifying how am going to handle BGR issues by learning and understanding more handles on such issues but i only realise am only touching on the tip of the iceberg. I had to list down five requirements/expectations of my future partner. But this is only the easy part.

Next is the tricky part.I have to put down a reasonable age where i think i will be ready for relationship. Lol ha anyone in the sane mind would say that is as soon as possible. But i have second thoughts about it! Hey guys why not you yourself think about what are the criteria you want on your future spouse and when are you really gonna get involved in a real relationship. Maybe that may save us all from all the hassle of unnecessary futile relationships

Simple Joy

Hmmm i have this great feeling...
I now realised thast whenever i see my friends grow stronger with the lord, it make me happy!!! Even if we are not from the same church yet seeing my friends getting more involved in theif faith it's making me very happy. Guess the Joy of the Lord is really my STRENGTH!!!!

I want to see more of m friends walking the the lord's light of truth!!!

Getaway

I need a getaway....
Things at home are getting so volatile. I am standing between my father and mother. My Father nonchalant about the whole silly situation only know hows to come at me with BOMBARDIC FINANCIAL QUESTIONS!!!!

Does he even care about how i feel? Am living on financial purse strings so tight am really finding it difficult to go on daily tasks. Am scrimping and saving everyday so that when am out i can have the bit of financial freedom.

I am paying my own fees? I source for my own ways to get the things that i need. Guess i ight really have to work part-time. I do not want to do that because i really need the time to be around in case anything happenes. I need to be financially independent now on i guess.

Oh God, i still choose to believe that you will not put me through temptations and trials I cannot bear. Lord i really neeed help!

This is such a stalemate situation i really need wisdom from God. This is not just a channel of frustration but the deepest thoughts within me.

Out Of Singapore!!!

There is many things i want to do yet am restricted.....

Too bad am not born in a loaded family where i can be fully paid to studies overseas. I want to get out of Singapore system for a momentary time. I want to go Australia, i want to study overseas!!!
If it's not possible i want to study direct degree at SIM 58k!! Crap that is like whatever la...
I just have to whine my friends are ll leaving overseas to pursue what they want!!! Why can't I ???!!!
I hope some unknown distant relative would leave me a huge sum of money i don't even know existed so i can do whatever i want!!!! Argh !!!! Leave Me!!! Don't tell me you guuys are going overseas anymore !!! KEEP IT TO YOURSELF!!!

Run Fat Boy Run!

I am going on diet?! Yes sounds Gay but i don't care am fat real fat!!!!
Ha ha lol cause recently was going jogging my conditioning is OMG Scarily bad ha. Should be watching what i eat from now on Ha Ha .

Other than that been practising Guitar Good Boy! Lol And exams are coming ha...

LASTLY!!!!

A Bad Villian wished to be mentioned on this Blog

R**** G**** You are very much mentioned ha

No hard feelings ^_^

Kissed Dating Goodbye!!!

I bought I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris !!!
Am i nuts?! Kissing dating goodbye!!!! Ha ha lol i am not sure about it but am gonna read it!!!
I am not going to be changed into a heartless zombie and i am darn sure i don'thave the gift of celibacy and i don't want it!!!!! Hope i will help me search my heart and helpme wait for that perfect girl that God had 'reserved' for me lol!!!!!

Anyway Exams are coming mugger ha .
I have this goal to read one good character edifying book a month guess it's still on track!!! Praise God!!!
Other than than holidays are coming Woosh! I have a lot of friends to do some extensive catching up with!!!! So See Ya peeps!

Homosexuality

I am always baffled by same sex relationship not that it induced a sense of 'grossness' in me it's just that logically, biologically things shouldn't work out.

I realised that the trend of homosexuality is taking a peak in such times because of one word. UNISEX hmmm it bascially means "for both males and females" but i feel that as more things goes into unisexuality, like clothings, personal styles and even things that people do, unisexuality has resulted in distinct division between man and women being conformed to each other.

Hmmm though i am not a pro-homosexual person i am looking at things vvery bojectively and i still don't find it justifiable. Biologically if many people turns to homosexuallity and even get married in countries where same-sex marriages are legal. This will result in population refreshment to fail. How the heck are a two guys or two women concieve?! Even with advancements in medical sciences today, i don't think any medical resources would be pumped into same-sex child-bearing.

If it's possible for same sex child-bearing i pity the child which of the parents would be Pa and which Ma that's a real nightmare.

Monday Blues

Bad Day
Don't know what to say just felt like saying something

Regrets...

Regrets

Things I've done i can't deny
Acts of folly, filled my mind
Now, deeds of folly haunt my mind
Things that i've did seemed to right
Now it's nothing but pain of life.

Regrets. –verb (used with object)

1.	to feel sorrow or remorse for (an act, fault, disappointment, etc.): He no sooner spoke than he regretted it.

2.	to think of with a sense of loss: to regret one's vanished youth.

–noun

3.	a sense of loss, disappointment, dissatisfaction, etc.

4.	a feeling of sorrow or remorse for a fault, act, loss, disappointment, etc.

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Defined from the dictionary.com, regrets are either sorrow or regret's of one's vanshed youth. I have my fair share of regrets.

Vanished youth, i felt that that's a great way am defined. Moments of folly, just now brief point of time has caused regrets. I regret not studying, not being a good (enough) friend, not a filial enough son.

Yet, all these things might be of the past yet these are the very things that becomes the shackles of my very present being. Easy said to look forward in life, but many things in life once spiraled out of control means that there will be no turning back. Price are paid for a haughty decision, consequences faced from foolish deeds, wasted time for redundant stuff which seemed ridiculously important to be at that time.


Now all that am left is salvaged debris from a weathered wrecked ship. Making out bits and pieces trying to make the best out of what remained only to realise that it's a futile effort trying to turn scrap to gold.


I thought i needed a stroke of luck, a moment of brilliance or even a great windfall to pull me out of the slums only to realise it's my wishful thinking. I admit things are still on a greyscale. but there is a brillance light in my life now. I found a God to make the wrong things right. A God to comfort my pain, to lead me when am lost.

I was taken away everything that mattered to me in my life only finally realise that all i actually needed was a big God, a Great God. God use the foolish to shame the wise indeed. God gave me a broken life so i could seek a perfect life in him.

Now all i am is nothing but an empty vessel easily broken yet readily filled by God. Thinking back in life there are so much transistent things in life. Do they really matter? Now, i would say no! Cause other than God nothing else matters.

Praise God for the conviction in my life.

Still!

Today bought a shirt and a pullover!!!! Both at 40% off spent only like 60 dollars
Very happy guess i still can save in times like this haha. On the way home, i looked back and i realised i did changed in many ways! I enjoy chatting with Alvin now and in the past, i was like only talk to girls on the phone!!! Ha and even thought that having a guy leader like Alvin and talking to him was like so GAY!!!! But now i enjoy the precious time we fellowship. Now, i am beginning to understand the zeal of transforming people's life i always thought that this kinda things caan leave it to the leaders but now am actually thinking of it everyday! I reall thank God for all these changes life is so meaningful now! Now am looking forward to even more exciting years ahead!!!

New Year Service!

Woo hoo !!!! First service of the Year 2009 was Great!
Despite having to wake up extremely early [which is the only down side :( ] All was great.
Everyting so so great i have to list it down:

• Worship was fabulous ( I guess the adults have a kind of charismatic aura ha)
• The ambience was real good having combined service with the adults give a new dimension!!!
• The packed Hall 10!!! Seeing fellow Youth and Adult net made me feel real homely!!!

• Post service was good ha ending at 1.30pm gives us really ample time to fellowship and yet not resulting in being home late

Generally all was great the end of the day was endedup in lunch at pastamania!!!! So See ya guys! School starting tomorrow bummer....

Music

I realise Music is a powerful thing. It's ability to induce emotions is incredible. I realise that i am very easily affected by music. Piano pieces have the ability to carry me away without fail. I remembered i first picked up pianowhen i was young because my Mum found me deeply engrossed when my sister was playing the piano.

But i gave on to the easy way out in life. I gave up Piano at Grade 4 as much more time will be required of me to devote into practising. Now till this day i found the joy of piano pieces, it is like i found a long lost kin!

I find myself uncontrollably absorbed when there are piano pieces played either 'live' or through media. I really thank God that he has given me the joy of being able to appreciate the joy of his creation of music.

2009

Hey guys!!! I haven't been updating much . So one of my resolutions is to blog more this year :)