Regrets...

Regrets

Things I've done i can't deny
Acts of folly, filled my mind
Now, deeds of folly haunt my mind
Things that i've did seemed to right
Now it's nothing but pain of life.

Regrets. –verb (used with object)

1.	to feel sorrow or remorse for (an act, fault, disappointment, etc.): He no sooner spoke than he regretted it.

2.	to think of with a sense of loss: to regret one's vanished youth.

–noun

3.	a sense of loss, disappointment, dissatisfaction, etc.

4.	a feeling of sorrow or remorse for a fault, act, loss, disappointment, etc.

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Defined from the dictionary.com, regrets are either sorrow or regret's of one's vanshed youth. I have my fair share of regrets.

Vanished youth, i felt that that's a great way am defined. Moments of folly, just now brief point of time has caused regrets. I regret not studying, not being a good (enough) friend, not a filial enough son.

Yet, all these things might be of the past yet these are the very things that becomes the shackles of my very present being. Easy said to look forward in life, but many things in life once spiraled out of control means that there will be no turning back. Price are paid for a haughty decision, consequences faced from foolish deeds, wasted time for redundant stuff which seemed ridiculously important to be at that time.


Now all that am left is salvaged debris from a weathered wrecked ship. Making out bits and pieces trying to make the best out of what remained only to realise that it's a futile effort trying to turn scrap to gold.


I thought i needed a stroke of luck, a moment of brilliance or even a great windfall to pull me out of the slums only to realise it's my wishful thinking. I admit things are still on a greyscale. but there is a brillance light in my life now. I found a God to make the wrong things right. A God to comfort my pain, to lead me when am lost.

I was taken away everything that mattered to me in my life only finally realise that all i actually needed was a big God, a Great God. God use the foolish to shame the wise indeed. God gave me a broken life so i could seek a perfect life in him.

Now all i am is nothing but an empty vessel easily broken yet readily filled by God. Thinking back in life there are so much transistent things in life. Do they really matter? Now, i would say no! Cause other than God nothing else matters.

Praise God for the conviction in my life.

Still!

Today bought a shirt and a pullover!!!! Both at 40% off spent only like 60 dollars
Very happy guess i still can save in times like this haha. On the way home, i looked back and i realised i did changed in many ways! I enjoy chatting with Alvin now and in the past, i was like only talk to girls on the phone!!! Ha and even thought that having a guy leader like Alvin and talking to him was like so GAY!!!! But now i enjoy the precious time we fellowship. Now, i am beginning to understand the zeal of transforming people's life i always thought that this kinda things caan leave it to the leaders but now am actually thinking of it everyday! I reall thank God for all these changes life is so meaningful now! Now am looking forward to even more exciting years ahead!!!

New Year Service!

Woo hoo !!!! First service of the Year 2009 was Great!
Despite having to wake up extremely early [which is the only down side :( ] All was great.
Everyting so so great i have to list it down:

• Worship was fabulous ( I guess the adults have a kind of charismatic aura ha)
• The ambience was real good having combined service with the adults give a new dimension!!!
• The packed Hall 10!!! Seeing fellow Youth and Adult net made me feel real homely!!!

• Post service was good ha ending at 1.30pm gives us really ample time to fellowship and yet not resulting in being home late

Generally all was great the end of the day was endedup in lunch at pastamania!!!! So See ya guys! School starting tomorrow bummer....

Music

I realise Music is a powerful thing. It's ability to induce emotions is incredible. I realise that i am very easily affected by music. Piano pieces have the ability to carry me away without fail. I remembered i first picked up pianowhen i was young because my Mum found me deeply engrossed when my sister was playing the piano.

But i gave on to the easy way out in life. I gave up Piano at Grade 4 as much more time will be required of me to devote into practising. Now till this day i found the joy of piano pieces, it is like i found a long lost kin!

I find myself uncontrollably absorbed when there are piano pieces played either 'live' or through media. I really thank God that he has given me the joy of being able to appreciate the joy of his creation of music.

2009

Hey guys!!! I haven't been updating much . So one of my resolutions is to blog more this year :)